I had previously suffered with bad postnatal depression and now I am sharing my experience and journey to recovery. I have two daughters, I did suffer for six weeks after the first but then it went as quickly as it came. It was far worse with the second daughter, even though I tried to prepare myself and my family. It was a big shock to be so out of control. At my worst, I wasn't eating, I was in a really low place, I wasn't taking care of myself and then I became very suicidal and felt it would be better not to be here. It was a long, hard two year journey to recovery.