I am a recovering gambling addict and have spent the best part of the last decade addicted to poker machines, or 'pokies' as they are known here. Growing up, my parents and their parents all gambled, so it was really normalised for me but then at 18 I hit the ground running, my addiction took over my life and I was in denial for many years. It took me to some very dark places, I have had two suicide attempts but luckily survived, now I am trying to help others with my lived experiences.